Layla, My little girl. The only first true love I’ll ever have. I know we may not have talked a lot recently; And I know that you know, Neither have I, And you’r Dad.
Last night that changed. Out of nowhere, A text came. The stars rearranged. I can finally See the Stars again. The night no longer looks like a city of Broken glass. I have hope.
You’r father and I talked for a few hours, About small things and big things and things in between. But mostly we talked about us, And of course we talked about you.
He told me that he loves me, And that he loves you. He says he thinks about us all the time. I told him that we do too.
He said he’s wanted to talk to me for some time, And finally did it. I wonder is he knows, About all of these feelings Iv’e hid.
We’re supposed to meet, My hearts already getting cold feet. What if we look into each others eyes and can’t even see one another. What if all we see is you?
I’m so afraid to take this step. But I’ve Been waiting so long. I can’t chicken out now. I know for a fact it would be The second most hurtful thing i’d ever regret.
You’r number one.
We thought it’d be fun; So we danced with the devil. He Spun me around, But we had no fun. Making you possible was the best thing I’ve ever done. And now that i’ve lost you, Im not so sure if i’ll ever see sun.
This is my chance to make mends, To see if your Dad and I have the same thoughts swirling our heads. Its so scary to think that at the end of the night, We’ll be back home, In our own separate beds.
Everything’s changed. The times, The season, Even my word of reason. Life’s been flipped upside down and throw around. I fell like I’m stuck in a twister; Some days, The only things I want back, Are you and my mister.
I tell everyone, I miss ‘Her’. And always ‘Her’ Is you. And He is ‘Him’. But that always leaves, Just me.
I pray to God that this will give me some closure. I miss you more than anything. Every chance I get; I give your life exposure. I show people you’r picture. I talk about you all the time. And through it all, I’m the only one who knows how badly, I’m not fine. This isn’t fine, It’ll never be fine.
“dont hold onto toxic things”…”Learn to let go, Don’t fester on things, You’ll only make it worse for yourself in the end”
But that’s not how I think of you. You are the last drop of water in ever glass; You are the best bite of ever meal, If only I actually wanted to eat. But everything reminds me of you. I always wonder if you miss me too.
If I could hold the hands of time and run backwards, I would without thinking. You are the only thing I have ever wanted.
Im looking forward to seeing your father. If You want to look for us, We’ll be on a bench in Van Cortland park; Come send us a message if you even want to bother. We’d love to hear from you.
Please keep me safe. I’m always thinking about you. I Love You Layla, My first Daughter.
Layla; He told me that he loves me, And that he loves you. He says he thinks about us all the time. I told him that we do too.